Today I did my last high school exam ever, finally grade 12 is over
the real world here i come
Here is my final before and after photo. I have not reached my original ‘ultimate goal weight’ of 52kg/115lbs, but I’ve decided that I don’t really want to anymore.
It was not easy to lose those 5 kilograms. It took me 10 months. 10 WHOLE MONTHS. It should have only taken me 2-3 months, but because I started out eating way too little my metabolism slowed down and I plateaued. Then, in order for my metabolism to recover, I had to start eating a whole lot more, which caused me to gain all the weight I lost, and so then I had to lose it again… please, if you don’t know my story about this already, read it here: http://shedding-away-the-insecurity.tumblr.com/mystory It might just save you an extra 7 months of frustration in not losing weight… which I had to live through myself.
I started this blog at the time when I realised I had to start eating more in order for my metabolism to heal. Those seven weeks following that of gaining weight were some of the toughest weeks in my entire life. But then, when I started to lose weight again, I was able to lose weight at a rate of almost 1 pound a week, whilst eating so much more food than I could before. And I broke through my plateau. Not in scale weight, but in measurements and body fat. Which matters more anyway, right? And so now I am the fittest, healthiest, and slimmest I have been in my entire life.
In these last few days I have really changed the way I see things in terms of my body and weight loss. I have realised that it is NOT about becoming a number on the scale, because NUMBERS DON’T MEAN ANYTHING. It’s about becoming healthy and fit and accepting and loving your body for what it is- you can change some things, but you may not be able to change the things your genes determine: like how I have thick thighs to match my wide hips (the only bad part about being an hourglass) and if I want really thin legs I have to get thinner all over- which means losing a little too much off by chest for my likings. But most of all, it’s about becoming completely confident and happy with who you are and what you look like.
So no, I have not reached my ‘ultimate goal weight’, but I have reached something much much more: total happiness, fitness and confidence with my body. And it feels amazing.